When God began to close the door on our season in La Represa, I clearly heard him say,
“I am taking you into a time of rest and healing.
Do not worry. I am preparing a home for you.”
I came to the U.S. for a visit specifically to find a house and purchase furniture. We literally had nothing to start our life over in the U.S. We had sold everything that we owned before moving to the DR.
MY plan had been to find a house early on so that I would know what furniture would fit and purchase what we needed. I was driving around town hoping to find a “For Rent” sign. By the 2nd week, I continued to come up empty. I was worried and stressed. I began to cry and thought, “God, you said that you were preparing a home for us. Where is it???”
At that exact moment, the song, Still, by Hillary Scott, came on. These lyrics felt like God speaking to my weary, unbelieving soul:
You’re moving mountains that I don’t even see
You’ve answered my prayer before I even speak
All You need for me to be is still
Yeah, I hear ya, God! “Being still” for my type A personality is difficult. I had a mission. I needed to do something. Yet…
He asked me to just “Be Still”.
Once again, God was growing and stretching me. He was pointing out that I was still struggling with trust and unbelief.
So, I stopped “doing” and began to “be still”, which, in turn, helped me to thoroughly enjoy my U.S. visit. On the very last day of my visit, I signed a rental agreement on our house.
This home has been more than we could have ever asked for! It is small (much smaller than the house in which we lived prior to moving to the DR). We could probably fit 2 1/2 of these homes into our prior house. However, that’s just it: That house was just a house. This house is a home. We love this home because it is perfect for us! Rarely does a day go by that I don’t say to Mo or one of the kids, “I just love our home so much!”
It has become a place where I can sit in Jesus’ lap and rest. In this home, I have wrestled God until my soul felt like it was bleeding. It has become a place where many tears have fallen as I have begun to heal physically, spiritually, and emotionally. It is a place where God has ask me to “Be still and be quiet”. It has been another place and another time in which God has taught me to be obedient…where He has taught me humility…where He has broken me in ways that only He could heal me.
He has shown me that He has been moving mountains that I couldn’t see, and He has been answering prayers before I could even speak.
Now, it is time to talk. Now, it is time to share the physical, emotional, and spiritual fight that I have been fighting….