One thing that I hope everyone knows about me is that I am real. What you see on social media will be the same thing that you see in my “real life”. You won’t hear spiritual platitudes coming from my mouth. I won’t say things just to placate you. That is both a blessing and a curse.
The reason that I am saying this is because I need all of you to know that. I hope to show as much of the good, bad, and ugly of me that is socially acceptable. (Let’s all face it…only your closest of friends see it all!) My hope is that by being honest and vulnerable that you can see God at work. My hope is that through my own personal struggles and angst that you can see God working in and through me. My hope is that this gives you hope and points you to the one that seeks your heart!
Yesterday, I posted a plea for prayer on FB. Over the past month, we have been getting attacked from all sides in ways that we have not made public. The same thing happened when we were entering the mission field. We have been a bit shocked that it is happening as we are leaving the field to enter a season of rest and healing. We feel that we aren’t much of a threat right now and couldn’t understand why we were under siege.
Hermanas en Cristo has been doing the War Room bible study, and our recent Women’s Retreat’s theme was “This is War!”, with our focus on becoming Prayer Warriors. For anyone that has not read Priscilla Shirer’s book, Fervent, she talks about how satan attacks us in all areas of our life to distract us so that we will lose our focus on God. He uses problems in our marriage, our relationships and our finances to distract us. He wants to take away our passion and our energy so we won’t have the strength to fight. He uses others to remind us of who we were in our past. Once he distracts and weakens us, then he goes in for the kill.
That is where I was yesterday…distracted and depleted!
How can we fight against that? Through prayer and scripture!!!
I heard God say, “Ask for help! Surround your family with a Wall of Prayer Warriors!”.
I needed to “practice what I preach”.
As I reached out on FB, I was nervous for laying it out there for all to see. I was weak, vulnerable, and sinking! I was nervous about being judged for “being weak in my faith” (<—don’t get me started on that! That is for another day, another post).
We were overwhelmed by love and support! We received so many private messages and words of encouragement, and so many people began praying for us. It did feel like we had a Wall of Prayer Warriors all around us. It gave us strength to refocus on Him.
There are going to be times in our lives where we don’t have strength to fight alone. God is always with us and always faithful. I believe that is why He also provides us with Prayer Warriors to surround us and protect us as we refocus on Him. God also uses these times to grow and mold us. He will never let our pain occur in vain. He always uses that for His good. God is teaching me to be vulnerable, bold, and to live without fear of judgment. He is teaching me not to listen to what others say about who I am, but to believe who He says I am. He is showing me that I am not the sum of all of my past mistakes and failures. I hope that my moments of weakness can serve as a testament for Him. I hope that you can see that no one is perfect in their walk with Christ. Yes, I definitely hope that you do not see a “perfect Christian”, but that you see a broken person that NEEDS Jesus! I hope that you can see the new story that God is beginning to weave into our lives. I hope to continue to focus and rest in Him. I hope that you can see that He will always turn something beautiful from the ashes to glorify His name!