“Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” ~ Isaiah 41:10
Those close to me know that I struggle with invisibility…and now the whole interwebs know as well. It’s a nagging childhood wound that doesn’t seem to want to go away. It’s definitely a scar that satan uses to pull me down…to tell me that I don’t matter…and I am not good enough.
Today has been a really rough day for me. For a few months now, we’ve been going nonstop, entertaining teams and guests, working our ministries, and dealing with numerous illnesses. Seriously, I feel like this whacked out little peacock:
Can you say ragged?
I know how important self-care is here on the mission field but have been too busy to slow down. Satan knows this. When I get rundown and tired, he wants to isolate me so that he can bully me with his mean ole words. He is such a jerk face!
However, tonight, I didn’t let that happen. I immediately messaged the people in my life that I love and trust. I told them,
“Pray for me! I am struggling with invisibility tonight and am wallowing in a huge pool of pity!”
Earlier in the day, I had posted on Facebook how I needed someone to bring me a Starbucks peppermint mocha latte STAT…
…because that would cure my pity party and make me visible again. I am quite certain of this!
Right in the middle of the crisis in my mind, I got a message from a childhood friend that said, “I work at Starbucks and I want to send you all the things to make a peppermint mocha anytime that you want to!”
It felt like God spoke straight through her to say,
“I see you there, Tamara! You are not invisible to me!”
God really does love me…
And He kicked satan’s butt with kind words from friends…
…and a Starbucks peppermint mocha!
You go, God!!!