In a bible study that I attended in the states, there was a single lady in the group. She spoke one day about how much she wanted a husband. However, she accepted that God was not ready to bless her with The One yet. It was during this time that she decided that she would allow God to “court” her. She wanted to be aware of the ways in which God blessed her, loved on her, rubbed salve over those hurt places in her heart, ways in which He comforted her loneliness, and healed her brokenness. She began to notice beautiful sunrises and sunsets that she shared with Him. She noticed how He would use a coworker to place a cup of coffee on her desk. She noticed how He would gently show her broken places in her heart that needed repairing. In essence, everything was God’s way of delighting in her and preparing her for His plan in her life. She was so thankful and sang His praises with tears in her eyes.
Her words have come to me many times since then…
“Find ways in which God is courting you”
I have been trying to be conscious of the ways in which He delights in me and ways that He wants to make my heart smile. The land in which I currently live is stunningly gorgeous so it’s very easy to see the beautiful landscape that He prepared for me. I noticed when He answered my prayers for rain to coat the dry, dusty terrain from our current drought. I also noticed how, in the supermarket the other day, Mo found this:
Yes, my husband knows how to still court me too! Liquid coffee creamer is something that I have missed sooooo much, so my heart feels like it is being kissed every morning when I drink my coffee.
It is so easy for me to see the physical things and say “Thank you so much, God!”
How about the things that are not physical…that I can’t see or touch? Am I noticing those things also?
This week, I got a call from our women’s minister at our stateside church. She told me that they had arranged for me to come to the women’s retreat that is taking place in September. To say that I was overjoyed is an understatement! Ever since I heard about this retreat, I have been so sad that I wasn’t able to go.
Now…this is a HUGE change from where I once was and, for that, I am thankful…
Prior to this time in my life, the thought of going to a women’s retreat would cause me to break out in hives, my breathing would become labored, and my palms would sweat! I would rather sit in the corner in fetal position poking myself in the eyes with a pencil (<–dramatic effect intended there).
Relationships with women have always been very difficult for me. Quite honestly, I don’t understand them AT ALL. Women have never been a “safe” place for me. With all these “mommy wars” going on, relationships with women have always felt like some kind of competition that I did not sign up for and was not equipped for. It always felt like women were doing life AT me. (Glennon Melton wrote exactly how I feel in THIS POST .)
God wanted to heal this in me and has been teaching me differently by sending women into my life that now speak truths to me, instead of the lies that I believed for so long. They have loved me for being me. They have guided me through this crazy maze called “girlfriends”, pointing me to His word and sitting patiently with me when I have wanted to run because it’s JUST SO HARD!
Most importantly, when God sits with me in the mornings, He delights in me. He tells me, through His word, that I am “fearfully and wonderfully made” (Psalms 139:14). God is my friend, my homie, and my heart! He knew that He was enough for me…but then He added my husband…and then my kids. God knew what I needed next was girlfriends but He also knew that He needed to prepare my heart for them. He taught me how to open my heart to relationships with women. For this, I am eternally grateful!
I am so thankful that God sent my church to arrange for me to attend this retreat! I cannot wait to spend this time with all of these ladies while we sink into His word and pour into each other’s lives.
Thank you, Lord, for loving me enough to show me how to love and receive love from others!!!
IN WHAT WAYS HAVE YOU NOTICED GOD COURTING YOU LATELY?