Yesterday, when we were leaving church, Mo said “THIS is the hardest part”. When I asked him how he meant that, he explained that we are ready to go but we are still here. Our hearts are in another country. We love the US but are ready to serve the people of the Dominican Republic. We are ready to see what God wants from us and where He wants to lead us. We are wrapping up our businesses, selling off our things, and making plans…LOTS of plans, and we are still HERE…and not THERE.
While everyone has been uber supportive throughout this whole journey, we have been feeling resistance, judgement, and naysaying these past couple of weeks. I told someone at church yesterday that I have been wanting to avoid church because it’s difficult to hear some of the things that some of the women have been saying to me. I told her that I have actually wanted to avoid everyone because I don’t need any negativity right now. She quickly pointed out that was Satan. That, in his mean spirit, he wanted to isolate me so that he could whisper lies into me.
I am embarrassed to say that it has been working at times. I am embarrassed to admit that I feel fragile right now…that I have times that I quietly and secretly in my lowest whisper, so that I can’t even hear it myself, say “What the mess are we doing?”…and “Can we really do this?”…and so many other things…
…because THIS is the hardest times!
Isaiah 41:10 “Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand”
When we were talking, I told Mo that I think this was the MOST important time as well. This was God’ Boot Camp for us. As a soldier prepares for battle, he must go into intensive training This is our training. God has been preparing our hearts on so many things but THIS…THIS IS THE BIGGIE. This is the time where our hearts ache for Him…where our strength and assurance can ONLY come from Him…where He is here to catch us when we fall and wipe our tears away. He is here to encourage us and say…
“You are doing the right thing. I called you to this because I see in you what you don’t see in yourselves. I called you, and I will be your strength”
Prayers…lot of prayers please!
***I know that I said that I would tell you about some amazing things that have been happening, and I will tomorrow!
Have you ever had a time that you wondered how you would make it through? What did God speak into your heart? What lessons were learned?